Billie Eilish is getting completely truthful about her body image problems and the dark factor behind her signature appearance.
In a brand-new interview with British GQ, the 18- year-old Grammy winner talked about why keeps large hoodies and saggy clothes in rotation, where her insecurities with style initially began, and the extensive impact it’s had on her love life through the years.
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The young artist informed the mag about being homeschooled through youth, noting she would just patronize fashionable stores and force herself to dress like the abundant kids who went to routine school in order to attempt and feel “normal.” However, she says the unpleasant stage was tough to handle and didn’t last, including, “since then I’ve never felt comfortable looking like other people.”
While the choice to break away from the standard and discover her own individual design felt empowering, it likewise stimulated on some severe body image problems– particularly in romantic relationships. She confessed:
“Here’s a bomb for you: I have never felt desired. My past boyfriends never made me feel desired. None of them. And it’s a big thing in my life that I feel I have never been physically desired by somebody.”
Wow That is really unfortunate to hear. (Side note: the number of sweethearts did she have time for while constructing a currently remarkable profession at her age?!) The teenager experience continued:
“So I dress the way I dress as I don’t like to think of you guys – I mean anyone, everyone – judging it, or the size of it. But that doesn’t mean that I won’t wake up one day and decide to wear a tank top, which I have done before. Sometimes I dress like a boy. Sometimes I dress like a swaggy girl. And sometimes I feel trapped by this persona that I have created, because sometimes I think people view me not as a woman.”
Ugh Screw whatever unfavorable remarks or understandings anybody may have! It may be much easier stated than done when you’re living life in the public eye, however the method YOU see yourself ought to constantly matter the majority of.
This interview begins the heels of an incredible trip video she launched in late May, where she disrobed numerous layers of clothes till she was just using a bra. Explaining the much deeper significance behind the effective clip, she informed the mag:
“That tour video was about all that. It is me saying: look, there is a body underneath these clothes and you don’t get to see it. Isn’t that a shame? But my body is mine and yours is yours. Our own bodies are kind of the only real things which are truly ours. I get to see it and get to show it when I want to.”
The almost four-minute brief movie entitled NOT MY DUTY remarkably resolves the method the music market has sexualized girls and it’s absolutely worth the watch if you have not currently inspected it out!
The Bad Guy vocalist likewise provided some insight on whether she’s dating today, confessing utilized to be a big top priority for her prior to succeeding:
“All I ever wanted was a boyfriend. Any time when it was rainy or cloudy, all I would wish is I was with some boy. That was my thing.”
But now, it’s ended up being the outermost thing from her mind:
“It is so weird, but I don’t see it for myself. I know I will find someone eventually, but at the moment I can’t visualize it. I feel like I am a totally different person when I am with someone else. People just don’t do it for me. It’s weird.”
We hope whoever is fortunate enough to call themselves her better half one day values every little stunning feature of her, defects and all, too! Before you go, ch-ch-check out her badass cover shot (listed below):
[Image via WENN/Avalon]